You know. I woke up on a bad dream the day before-when-was-that. Haha. I was crying. My sister was disturbed in her sleep because of me sobbing. She called, “Nang…, Nang…..” till I woke up. I don’t really see what I dreamed but I know someone is nagging.
Guess what!!!!! I got an 87 in my Phil Gov class!!! I screamed when I heard that I got 87. My gay friend told me, “Hulaan mo.” And first I guessed “81?” Haha. I really thought I would get a low grade. Remember when I was worried that I might fail this class.
And today three years ago, I joined WordPress! Haaaappy! There are things–small things–in this world that can make still make you smile. I forgot that.
You know. I realized. That laughing is sad when forced. More depressing than the sad feelings that you hide through laughing.
I like him. But there is always a barrier like fate. But I don’t really blame a fantasy thing. I blame myself. And I want to cry. You know, this guy drives me crazy. One time he makes me really, really happy and then makes me so sad.
I miss him. But there is always a barrier. I want to see him. And I waited for him. I blame myself for my temper, my schedule. You know, this guy… .
I dance like a goat. Sa PE ko kanina, pinasayaw kami. Practical exam. Lateral blah, blah at madami pa. As in! Wala akong nakuha. Huhuhu. 😦 Naiiyak na nga ako kanina e. Siryoso. Sabi ko sa sarili ko, “They won’t see me crying.” Madrama. Wala talaga akong nakuha. Kahit anong ulet mong ituro, hindi ko mamememorize ang sayaw.
Sometimes, may naneneglect din naman tayo as a person na i-cultivate na talents or skill. Meron naman siguro akong katiting na talent sa pagsasayaw (ano daw?). Pero sadyang ang panget lang talagang tingnan.
I felt bad talaga. Really bad.
Naalala ko nga noong una kong sumayaw sa bahay. Pinasayaw kaming magkakapatid nina Mama at Dad. WOW. Sumayaw naman daw ako. Tapos, narinig ko na lang sila. Clucking their tongues like a lizard. Walang pag-asa. So yun. Hindi na ako sumayaw.
We really can’t have it all.
Someday. What a hope word.
After hours of sitting and looking for a job, I finally found what really suits me. Haha. I think I need a PayPal account.
I want to have a cam!
Just had a haircut yesterday.